Last week, as I was clocking out from work, I checked the list of open slots in different departments for hiring (
like I always do). I would joke to my colleagues
"Maybe I'll do better in the dietary department. I'll wash the dishes. Less responsibilities."There was a long list at the bottom of the paper. 4 openings at the Health Care Center.
I thought to myself - why not?
After consulting resources about the opportunity, the pros outweighed the cons. As much as I don't want to leave my comfort zone, I realized that it's about time that I set changes and take the next step.
I've been procrastinating for the past 3years, and it's about time that I walk away from gravity.
One of my colleagues said
"Don't miss out on this, or you will regret it."
I sat down in front of my computer for 2hours yesterday morning trying to figure out how I can start my transfer request do the other department. My fingers lay still on the keyboard, as I think about the words to fill in my blank page. I have the request to transfer form filled out with my name, current department, date and signature. But I haven't filled in the space for "Qualifications".
I began to doubt myself. Maybe I am not suitable for the position. Maybe I am not experienced enough.
I scribbled qualifications on the notepad, and started re-doing my resume.
Then, I began typing in my letter.
Dear Director of Nursing,
After signing my name at the bottom of the page, I started my letter to my boss.
Dear Director of ALSCR,
My heart was pounding as I held the printed pages on my hand.
At 3:20pm, I walked to my boss's office. She wasn't there. I left the letter with the Request to Transfer form in her box and walked away.
I realized that I forgot to sign the paper.
*doh* That was stupid. @_@
A couple of hours later, my supervisor whispered to me.
"Laura wants to talk to you."
I started to have butterflies in my tummy
(but not in a good way) as I walk to her office.
She was on the phone.
I left, and came back 30minutes later. Still on the phone. @_@
Why does she have to make this hard for me??? I asked my co-worker.
You'll be alright. Don't worry about it. He said, with a little pat.
I walked to her office again, and she was finally available.
Uh-oh.
She invited me in, and held the paper up.
What if I said no? She said, smiling.
I frowned.
Have you talked to the people at the Health Center yet?
Yes. But I heard the DoN is still on vacation.
She is out for 2 weeks, yes.
I don't even know how this process goes, so I wrote a letter to you, and wrote her a letter, too. I even printed out a copy of my resume. It's updated.
Well, I want you to improve your skills, but I don't want you to go. If this is what's best for you, I will sign the paper and you can hand it tomorrow to HR. They'll take care of it. I just wish you didn't have to go. You worked really hard here. And I'll be sad to let you go.
She handed me the signed paper.
Thank you so much.I walked to the office and laid my paper on the counter by my purse. I noticed that by her signature was a little note.
This made me smile. But a little sad, too. Oh well, caramel.
